... maybe?

... a little?

i got a facebook (danielle christine regello). and jill tries to act like she doesnt know how to use it but i think we all know how incredibly technologically disinclined I am, so help me out my faithful amigas!! mucho thankso for those of you who already have!


life is crazy can't wait to get the hell out of here!

i hate the menstrual cycle.

if it were a person i would kick the shit out of it.

in the head.

seven times.

hard.

damn it.

its called "elephant summer". i like it.

i like constance too!!! yey for new french friends!!

i wonder if i like jonny? that could be weird..... but i think it's possible.

i neeed summer vacation!!!

i need college!!!

i NEED san diego!!!

i also need love.

i am being needy.

merh.

loves.

anthony is coming to prom :o)

i started crying tonight for the most random reason...

i miss brian rhodes.

i mean i dont think i actually miss him specifically, but i miss how much he cared.
i know it drove me crazy but he always called right after work because he missed me and he always always wanted to see me any time it was possible.

i think im feeling unloved right now... in the boyfriend-esk way....

i'll probably be over it by the time i wake up....

::sigh::

i miss you brian. thanks for caring.


thanks for loving me guys dont know what id do without you

because i feel like it... and because no one has updated in a while...

there are times in life when you gotta crawl
lose your grip, slip and fall,
when you cant lean on no one else,
thats when you find yourself,
ive been around and i noticed that
walkin's easy when the road is flat,
but damn those hills'll getcha everytime
but the good lord gave us mountains
so we could learn how to climb.



i love you all!!!


I CANT BELIEVE IM GETTING A TATTOO IN 2 DAYS!!!! AHHHHH!!!

IT'S ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I'M ALMOST 18!!!!

I'M ALMOST AN "ADULT"!!!!

I DON'T THINK THE WORLDS READY FOR THIS!!!!

i got bored and made some unnecessary changes to my journal! yey for me!
check it out and please give me some lovin!!!

sorry its cliche, i just heard it and felt like it had to go somewhere.


it's the first time that I've been here,
Since I was here with him.
I remember all the wild flowers,
Wavin' in the wind.
Life was an undiscovered river:
I was jumpin' in head first.

It was sink or swim; do or die;
Sneakin' out on summer nights,
Stealin' wine from my Pa,
The thrill of not gettin' caught.
An' now an' then I miss those days,
But comin' back to this place,
I realize it ain't him I miss,
It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence, yeah.

We ran off to the corn field,
Just outside the county fair;
There were butterflies in my stomach,
An' fireflies in the air.
He tried hard not to show it,
Oh, but he was just as scared as me.

And it was sink or swim; do or die;
Sneakin' out on summer nights;
Stealin' wine from my Pa;
The thrill of not gettin' caught.
An' now an' then I miss those days,
But comin' back to this place,
I realize it ain't him I miss,
It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence, yeah.

And coming here has made me come to this:
The one thing I can't get back is the one thing I miss, yeah.

An' it was breakin' rules, flyin' blind;
What you see through younger eyes;
It wasn't what I thought it was,
Man, I swore he was the one.
An' now an' then I miss those days,
But comin' back to this place,
I realise it ain't him I miss,
It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence, yeah.
It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence.
Yeah, it's that innocence.
Mmm mmm.

*broke up with brian last night. it had to happen. couldnt handle the kid. it got kinda ugly tho, i'll fill ya'll in on the details in person. merh. definately a huge relief. big weight off my shoulders. it'll happen for me someday, i know it will.

*joined Gold's! yey!

*finished Christmas shopping! yey!

*played drinking spoons with jill and jason! yey!

*its almost christmas!!! yey!!

*cookie making fest on wednesday at mi casa! everyones invited! bring stuff (vanilla, chips of choice (ie chocolate), cooking spray, cookie sheet, etc)

*secret santa finale! friday 22! mi casa sometime in the evening exact time TBA! be there!

*everyones invited to christmas eve at my house, its an open house staring at 3! if for any reason youre not busy come by!!!


i love you guys so much!!!
xoxoxoxox

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JILLIAN/JILL BOU/HOMOSEXUAL/FAGGOT/FLAME JOB/QUEER
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU


love you love you love you

yey for being 17!!!

lol

hahaha

have the best birthday ever! i hope all your birthday wishes come true!


PS redwood city got studio of the year!!!!! yey!! im so happy!!! RWC REPRESENT! :o)

HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND!!

I SAID YES!!

I AM FREAKING OUT!!!

IN A GOOD WAY!!!

I THINK!!!!

MORE DETAILS LATER!!!!



LOVE YOU ALL

so i just walked into the middle of world war three. or i guess in my house itd be world war one million and three.
my mom and my sister were full blown going at it. cussing at each other F bombs everywhere. i really dont get it. my sister is crazy and my mom sinks to her level so fast its not funny. they're rediculous. they make me afraid to have kids. according to miranda i get everything and i always have and they treat her like shit. its so untrue its not funny. my parents have always taken care of me, but they didnt drive us half as much as they drive M and her friends, or let me do half of what M does. no exaggeration. and i was fine. sure i hated my parents sometimes, and im fully aware that they can be entirely unreasonable, but i seriously have never cussed at them. ever. i have never hated them like M does. i dont get it. shes crazy. and now my moms like mad at me. and i have to ask before anybody comes over. so we're probably going to need to take a break from my house. thanks miranda. mmmmmeeeeerrrrhhhhhh. crazy crazy crazy people.

yesterday was really fun, yey for coming in like 4th in the tournament :o/ being drunk by like 230 :o) and hung over by like 7:o( overall it was sweet.

brians adorable i really like him. which is scary.... his good night text last night "Im home... Thanks for having me over! Im so glad i've gotten the oppertunity to get to know you! you're a very caring person, and i respect the way you respect others... g'night honey and sweet dreams!" almost too sweet, but im not complaining. i hope this works out at least for awhile. im crapping my pants about going to his house for dinner tonight. i know his mom isnt making like steak. but he just asked if i like shrimp. i dont. i said i do. mana. whateves i can handle shimp better then steak. ahhh im scared. were going bowling later, that should be fun. wish me luck!

i love you all.

cj you get extra special love. i know how you feel like no other. i got you. let me know if there's anything i can do... hugs and kisses!

PS. secret santa drawing tomorrow!!!

happy thanksgiving friends!!!!! i am thankful for each and every one of you!!!

yeys for this weekend....
friends
no school
no work
sleep
shopping
christmas tree
BEER PONG

can't wait! love you all!! hope ya'll are having a great turkey day!!!
xoxoxoxox

YouKneeK16 (6:39:45 PM): ok i need to be excited right now and theres no oneelse to be excited to
YouKneeK16 (6:39:48 PM): can you handle it?
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:41:07 PM): ya but y u excited?
YouKneeK16 (6:43:20 PM): ok guess whos about to come pick me up
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:43:28 PM): who
YouKneeK16 (6:43:32 PM): guess!
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:43:38 PM): lori
YouKneeK16 (6:43:43 PM): wrong!
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:43:47 PM): dietz?
YouKneeK16 (6:43:57 PM): wrong!
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:01 PM): jason?
YouKneeK16 (6:44:05 PM): wrong!
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:06 PM): DJ
YouKneeK16 (6:44:14 PM): no :-(
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:16 PM): lol
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:18 PM): srry
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:20 PM): lol
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:30 PM): dunno then who n dont tell me rick
YouKneeK16 (6:44:35 PM): GOD NO
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:44:52 PM): who then
YouKneeK16 (6:44:55 PM): brian
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:45:01 PM): ok
YouKneeK16 (6:45:14 PM): hes taking me out to ice cream :D
YouKneeK16 (6:45:17 PM): :-D*
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:46:12 PM): im happy 4 u
YouKneeK16 (6:46:23 PM): lol thanks
YouKneeK16 (6:50:46 PM): is it ok if i wear sweats and a swaetshirt?
YouKneeK16 (6:50:52 PM): or should i try to look cute?
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:51:17 PM): sweats n sweatshirt he'll think u look beautiful no matter wat well he should
YouKneeK16 (6:52:19 PM): aww :-) thanks bobby
VoKaLbAlLa4EvA (6:52:38 PM): np DL


i dont know what id do without every single one of you.

eeeeeeeek

so brian called me today!!!!! we talked for AN HOUR!!!!!!!!!! besides rick and chase the last boy that called me just to talk was probably chris. like 9 months ago. ::giggle:: i feel so silly. i dont even know what we talked about, work, school, family..... im really happy. im not going to get attached, ive only known the kid for a freaking week. but i am so happy!!!! :o) life's good.

can't wait to have all my girls back together again. not gunna lie this weekend was great but i feel incomplete without all ya'll!


love love love


hehehehehheheheeh

i met a new boy

:o)

we'll see how it goes

love you girls

you make my life

i basically thought i was going to die all day. mr waller thought it was funny. i think he felt for me tho.

today was a freaking blur.

and uh yeah.... last night... i def think im queen fuck tard.

oh ps team lets not talk about the johnny jones thing because i really dont want to get crap for it... lo, that includes not telling wes, if you did its no biggy but if you havent thatd be sweet. thanks ya'll.

uhg. sleep here i come. i love you all. thanks for loving me and my fucktardedness.

just wanted to say hi and i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this morning....

ME: (cant find my damn brush.) :::bang bang:: MIRANDA? you dont have my brush do you?
Miranda: ::opens door:: (looks nervous, looks around the room) uh... i'll look for it.
ME: WHAT?! i will kill you. i WILL kill you. I WILL KILL YOU.
Miranda: (looks like she shat herself.) ok! ok! ok! i'll find it!
ME: YOU HAVE FIVE SECONDS.
Miranda: :: hands me the brush.:: ::door slams.::

later at work...

Sarah (my boss): um it sounds like everything always gets jacked up.
ME: story of my life.


fghvjbknhgfdgchvjbknhgftghjk.lhtyfjrdhjyfyughujlkihugyufty ::hits head on keyboard::

i need a shot. or a million.


i love you guys.